Paramore :'(

It was a very long time ago since I heard Paramore's music again.
Nyah.
Actually, today I heard the whole album unintentionally.
Why?
Uhm, it's because my sister listened to it and of course it was heard throughout the house.
Hmm. Memories!
Memories came rushing through my mind.
Yahh. A bit sad because I love Paramore.
Their music. Of course is what I love most.
Nyah. Sad memories were flashed back to me because back from the past, I always listen to their songs whenever I'm sad.
Mostly because of 0-0.
Haha.

Past.
PAST.

--These scars, they will not fade away.--

Stranded!

Last Week, me, my classmates, some CIHM Staffs, and other CIHM students were stranded in our school.
It was because we were told that there was a class, actually-the continuation of our IHM Week, so we went to school.
There where 45 of us from different year and also the staffs and faculty.
Whooo..
We were stranded!
Haha.
With the cold, strong wind, unending flowing of rain, the streets were flooded.
The reason that we can't go home. :P

Some were afraid and crying because they want to go home.
Oh, I comforted my Jaiho!! Haha.
I even shared my small chiffon cake with them.
12 of us had the chance to eat it.
Haha.
I enjoyed it although I'm a bit cold because I'm wet.
Haha.
We even cooked our own meals.
Our section was the committee for the night!
I do belong in the Service Committee.
We arranged the chairs, the plates and served the food.

That night also, some thing strange happened while we were in the comfort room.
A voice of a girl humming was heard that made us afraid.

I'm blessed enough to have my sister's camera with me to take a pic of those memories.
I already posted it in FB.
:]]

After being stranded, me and my 3 other classmates who lives in the same city with me walked from Harris to Ynares.
:]
A very long, hungry walk. :]]
We did not have our breakfast in fear of being stranded again and we want to go home early as possible.

It was a very nice, scary, sad, fun experience!

A lot of disaster happened not only in our school but also everywhere in Luzon.

Star in the Midst of the Rain

"It was that star. His planet."

A short walk to home and it's raining hard.
I rushed to be at home quickly because I'm soaking wet.
I paused for a while.
Shocked to see that during this rain, that star is still visible to the eyes.
It's a little hard to see a star while raining.
I think once in a blue moon. :]]
And, I just remember a day from the past.
So upside-down!!
Unexplainable feeling!

nyah.
God loves me.

Doodles!

Fading Clouds..Cross and Sun

Photos in Siena!

I had this chance to take pictures in my new school.
I used my "sister's camera".
Not my real sister but my sister in school okie?.. :]]

Well, it was a hot afternoon and I looked at the sun.
The view are so cute.
Hmm. I wish I can have my own Cybershot too.
The same Cybershot like my real sister has. :]]
Haha.

I love taking pictures and last night my real sister saw my shots, she said that I really love media arts.
And I have good shots! ;]]

How I wish that my dream would come true.
BUt it's already broken because my course is International Hospitality Management.
Far from what I dreamed really of!
:'(

Well, that's life.
God has plans for me,
Best plans that I ought to see.
:]]

Champ, Yael, Armo :]]

Wihh. Armo's my favorite of all. Love love love. :]]
Haha

(photo courtesy of Mia Venus!)

Line for Today!

I can't believe you're the one for me. If it was this easy to find you, I should be ready for a fall.

-PJ Olsson, Ready for a Fall

Happy Rain!

If my first post is about sadness, this one is about being happy!

I'm happy.
Totally happy that it rained.
Haha.
I guess it's too different from what I'm feeling everytime it rains.
I always feel sad when it rains but this morning is too different.

I was doing something outside our house when it rained.
It rained hard.
I was almost wet and my mom was outside the house too.
She was doing the laundry.
Hmm, I was still doing something and I can't come insode because I was not yet finish.
Suddenly, Ching-Ching, my 3-year-old niece, went outside too.
It was raining hard like I said and she run into the rain.
She got wet in just a few seconds.
I laughed loudly because she was funny.
I walked towards the shelter to the rain and jumped.
I'm happy.
Me and Ching took a bath in the rain.
Haha.
It was a very nice feeling.
We even sang and danced in the rain.
We both laughed loudly. :P

Hmm. I felt the joy from the rain God sent.
I hope that when it rains again, I'll be happy and not be melancholic.

Hmm..but right now, I feel a little bit sad.Nyah!!
Why? Oh why?
Hmm.
I can't write the reason why I'm sad.
I really can't.
I have to keep it to myself alone.
I love to tell it too but at the same time I hate to tell it too.
Nyahh. Please stop crying!
Nyahh.
Why am I feeling this..??

Sad Thoughts Keep Coming

Oh!
Last night I was doing my homework in Theology.
I was in our living room with my sister.
She was listening to her CD's when she was in college.
We had a little chit-chat.
Well, of course, I was doing my homework and she was playing a game from the PSP.
While doing our own things, there's this song that was played for an infinite time. :P
We bought like it although it was new to my ear.

Hmm. My sister told me that she was listening to that song in her CD player when she was in college.
She's sitting in the gazebo or corridors and sometimes in the fire exit all alone while listening to that.
I felt too sad while she was telling her story.
Hmm, I realized then that I was a little bit the same with her.
I also sit alone in the school gazebo with my CD player.
Hmm. She told me that while listening to that she remembers something.
Memories!
Sad memories!

Haha.
So then, last night, after our talk, we listened to that song all over again..until I finished my homework in Theo!

So what are the thoughts that bothers me?
Hmm..people.
Two people I dearly love.
Nyah.
One from my high school days.
One from my present days..

Sometimes the people that we want really can't be like us the way we want it to be.
Hay!

What else?
Oh! I'm just posting this not to hurt '''''' but it's just that I have to release my sadness.
Haha.
I'm happy, of course, but hmm..I'm just wondering.
Whatever!!

There..There..There
I don't know.
Nyahh.

The Sun Rises for Me!

On this day of your life, Nanette, we believe God wants you to know...
... that when the sun rises, it rises for you.

Yes, for you. Just for you. Only for you. You are it, everything, the whole universe with all the billion galaxies and stars. The separateness you feel is only a mask you have put on to enjoy this human form. Under the mask, your shape is All. How far can you now feel your Self expand? To your parent?... to your child?... to your friend?... to a stranger on a street?... half way around the globe?

Wah. What a nice message from Facebook.
Good evening everyone!
God bless.
I've been too blessed today.
Haha.
I thank God for everything that's happening in my life.

Gone Daddy Gone

Nyahh. I was watching a tv show before I wrote this.
It's not yet finished but I ended up writing here and stop watching it.
Oh. But I still can here it from the room I'm in.

I miss my dad!
Nyahh. Teary me..:P
What would the feeling be if he was still here with us?

I don't know how to live with a dad in a house.
Well, I experienced it for a while but I can't remember the feeling of having a dad.
Nyah.
It's all a blur!

Hmmm. I'm a little bit sad.
A little bit disappointed.
A little bit longing for my dad.

But what can I do?
He's already gone.
I don't know where he is right now?
I hate it.

He left us for another girl.
But..hmm..I forgive him.
I just miss him.
Maybe?
If that's what you call it.

Whatever!

:'(

God has plans.
Hmm. I know God has a purpose why He allowed it to happen.

Quick Response to Cinderella Post

Nyah. After a long, cold, night bath, I rushed to open up the pc again.
Haha.
Thoughts are making me post something.
Nyahh.

Maybe, just maybe, if I'm Cinderella and situations are not going with the flow of the story, what would I do?
Nyahh, like I said in my previous post..if the glass slippers fit to my ugly, wicked stepsister..

Hmm, I'll talk to the Prince.
I'll tell him that it's not the slippers that counts.
It's the feelings.
I'll ask him to close his eyes and feel if my stepsister is the one he's looking for.

If, for some reasons, the prince is too bastard to know the truth, I'll accept it.
I'll not beg or cry.
I'll let him go because he's not worth it.
He does not feel that it's me.
He does not know the truth.
And so, he's not the one for me.

Nyahh.
Weird post isn't it?
Haha.
Weird things are going in my mind.

There's this post that I want to include here but I can't.
I haven't reviewed for my Business math Exam tomorrow.
Haha.
Well, a hint, it's also a fairy tale.
It's about Alice in Wonderland!
Haha.
What kind of thoughts do I have today?
Weird.
Haha.

S.S.

Silent Sanctuary is one of my favorite bands in the Philippines.
It was our 3rd Year summer break when I first heard their song.
The title of it is "Ikaw Lamang".
I love the music because it has violin and cello.
Not only that. The lyrics are so cool too.
Hmm.
Now, it's been years.
I still enjoy their songs.
I wish I could have their first album.
Then the second album!



Nyahh.
They have a new song.
The title is "Hiling".
I like the video of it.
And again.
Memories of the past keeps coming back.
Haha.

I miss my high school friends!
Hmm.

:]

Going Home with Now!

Wihh.
We were on our way home when this song was played.
I really love this.
Each line are so true! Haha.

"Now by MYMP"

Now is all I know
Now is all I got
And I don't know
If there will be tomorrow for us.

Now is all I care about
Now that you are here
Now that you're the contents of my heart.

Now you're all I know
Now is all I promise
And I don't know
If there will be a future for us.

Now is all I live for
Now that you are near
And it was best that from the start it was clear.

Refrain:
Loving is not owning
We can let it go
We can let it go.

Loving is not owning
You can let me go
You can let me go.

Chorus:
There's a reason
Why we love each other now
And we don't know if this is forever.

There's a reason
Why we are together now
And we don't care if it's not forever now.

Now is all I think about
Now that I am happy
And I'm not sure
If there will be a future for us.

Now is all I offer
It's everything I got
And I still wish
That there will be a tomorrow for us.

(Repeat Refrain)
(Repeat Chorus)
Ad Lib
(Repeat Refrain)
(Repeat Chorus except last word)
(Repeat Chorus)

Coda:
We love each other now...